Life is a journey with its ebbs and flows. Sometimes, we find ourselves at a crossroads. We feel lost and undervalued. Yes, people are scary and unpredictable. It’s okay to close the doors to your heart after getting yourself pushed to the edge of a cliff. It’s alright. It seems hopeless today. But this is also the sign that life is protecting you. It keeps things and people that are not meant for you away.

It’s in these moments that we must remember to rank ourselves, to find our way back to self-love and self-care. It’s not just a way to celebrate you. It’s also a way to accept every side of you which the world neglects to accept. Here’s how I embarked on this path of rediscovery.

Rediscovering Old Habits

Cleaning My Room: It started with the simple act of cleaning my room. This wasn’t just about tidiness. It was a metaphor for organizing my life. It was also for clearing out the clutter in my mind.

Work and Learning: I dove back into work and learning with a renewed vigor. I started learning Spanish again. I started distracting by going back to the workaholic routine. It was time to grow, to expand my horizons, and to remind myself of my capabilities. And it’s the way to numb yourself for a while.

Embracing Leisure

Reading Books: Books became my escape, my solace again. They are allowing me to live a thousand lives, to travel the world without moving an inch. And to heal me without human intervention.

Watching Anime: Anime, with its vibrant stories and characters, reminded me of the beauty in creativity. It also showed me the power of storytelling. And the power of being extraordinary. The vastness this world can offer is again imparted into my mind by anime. It reminds me that there is still hope even though I wanna give up on everything and disappear.

Digital Detox

Going Out for a Walk or Ride: I put my phone aside and reconnected with the world. Each step, each pedal, was a step towards healing.

Playing Basketball: On the rooftop, every shot was a release. It was a way to let go of pent-up emotions. It was a way to simply be in the moment.

Creative Outlet

Indulging in Writing: Writing became my therapy again. It has again became my way of processing my thoughts and emotions. It was raw, real, and incredibly cathartic.

Calling Up My Old Friends: Reconnecting with old friends reminded me of who I was before the heartache. They were my mirror, reflecting the person I still am.

Emotional Release

Crying: I allowed myself to cry, to feel the pain fully. It wasn’t a sign of weakness, but a step towards healing. But for me crying is a two sided sward. Because it is a poison for my physical health. But, what can I do, when all I want is to let it go.

Self-Care Routine

New Skin and Hair Care: I started new skin and hair care routines. I did this not for vanity, but as an act of self-respect and love.

Quality Time

With My Dogs and Family: The unconditional love from my dogs and the support from my family were my anchors. They reminded me of my worth.

In the end, it’s about making peace with the past and embracing the present. It’s about understanding that sometimes, the most significant relationship we have is the one with ourselves. And so, I’m learning to fall in love with myself all over again. Because at the end of the day, we are all we have.